Dear Dad

Today is a fathers day & i thought i should extend my love and gratitude to you on this day, i know you and i have not spoken in a while but i felt today was a right day for me to say Thanks for being who you're to me,

you know when you walked out of the door on us you teared our lives apart, depression became our constant companion. everything felt shallow, Mom tried but she could only do her best as a woman but she just couldn't understand what i and my brother went through as boys you know it frustrated her as she wanted to make sure we had a normal possible life ever without you but it was hard because most of things we went through we never got answers to. but a man you were taught me a lot you know  fact that you drank most your problems away taught me how to deal with my problem at first hand, how you smoked you life away showed me the danger of smoking, how you abused my mom physically, emotionally, financially, verbally & financially taught me how to be loving to women, when you deserted us in poverty with it's dark cloud hovering over us constantly threatening us with a huge thunder storm you inspired me to firmly stand on my feet and start my own business, fact that you were not there have made me a better 20 years old young man today with a clear vision of where my life is headed, i never received love from you but i have learned to love myself better, i used to regret the day you walked out because i felt that a part of me was ripped apart but that only drove me to a journey of redemption, the first hand rejection i got from you helped me grow thick skin wanted to survive this entertainment industry i find myself in, now i hustle with clear goals knowing i don't want my kids to wound up like i did and this generational vicious cycle that was started by your forefathers ends with me i choose not to partake in it, you never said you were proud of me but deep down in my heart I know for a certain you’re

I’m a better men than you were because I mirrored my life with yours

Your absence was a true blessing in disguise

I LOVE YOU DAD